okay.

yesterday marked three years since my brother died.
i have to say i was and still am almost completely numb.
which sucks, because it makes me afraid i am forgetting things.
now, it was still hard to deal with, to an extent.
but we didn't do anything in particular, and no one called (outside of family), and no one sent anything, and almost no one cried.

we were all okay.
which almost makes me guilty. i do miss him so much.

in other news, i broke up with aubrey a couple days ago.
i think it was the right decision.
very hurtful things were said on both parts, but we might be able to salvage a friendship out of the whole ordeal.
i hope so, but you never know.

it is weird to be single again.
but i think it's okay.

no more stress for the time being.
i got a mani/pedi on my break and it was the best foot massage i've ever received.
i love my job.
i get paid in 5 days.
tattoo hopefully within the next two weeks.
sydney rae in 2 weeks (weird/awesome/super exciting!).

i miss my girls again...we need to arrange another tear-jerking, dance-tastic soul-fest.

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this week goes down in history as one of the most stressful of my life.
most of the stress is easing up now, but i just hope that it doesn't come back and hit me in the face in a few days.

oh, AWESOMELY great "i'mmm dumb" moment of the week:
i thought the reception for my exhibition was tonight from 4-6pm.
however, i got to class yesterday evening and everyone says, "hey, where were you? why weren't you at the reception?"
me: "huh?"
them: "the reception, it was yesterday, you knew that, right??"

thus, i missed my first reception ever and no one i care about got to see my work in a real gallery.
sucks, man.

i didn't even get to see it for more than like 5 minutes, and all i did was take a photo of it on my phone:

so...there you go.
there's a possibility my professor is going to find another venue for the exhibit, so i guess anyone who cares can tell me and i can keep them posted.

good news is, i'm in digital darkroom this quarter so now i can make super prints of my work.


ehh...i feel like crap about myself right now.
kinda like i'm in a slump.

i need to get up, get out, and get somethin.